Neko

18.01.2011

Porvoo,Finland

Today, I and my [special friend] went to the pet farm in Pico in order to find for Neko Sebby a friend. Then we tried running back and forth many times in all 3 farms.. at first, we intended to bring home a Shiny Yellow Neko, but because we prefer the Chocolate color, so we had to skip her and tried searching more ^^

As a reward for our attempts, finally we found out Chocolate Neko Nyan ^^ She is very kawaii ^^ and we were very happy!!! Then, we saw Gray Neko and we also brought him home together with Nyan. The Grey Neko is Noctis. He is so cool and the gray color is exactly same as [your] hair color ^^ I like him so much. Soon, the new Neko-s will love me and we will have a crouded happy family ^^

After my [special friend] went to sleep, I started watching Crows Zero ^^. The movie was good.. but I do not like any character in it. Just because I want my man in future will never hurt anyone like they do ^^ well, I like brave man.. but I got scared when I saw guys with bloody face >.<

17.01.2011

Porvoo, Finland

I did not keep my words to write blog last night. It's because I was so happy and words cant express my feelings. When I looked at all these pictures we took.. I miss you..

Well, things come fast, we have to act faster.. I thank to God because He made us living apart.. if I were there, I couldnt imagine how far and how fast our relationship could be..

I watched all 3 parts of Death Note already. I think you should try it ^^ Me, I will watch Crow Zero soon because I want to know you more through your interests. Last night you gave me a dance-song.. and it made me laugh because I cant imagine how lovely and funny your heart could be.

About Neko Nyan, I love him, that is true. But, let him go.. If you do bring him back, I will be so sad... because after all, that's the other Nyan, not him really. Try to accept what we have now and forget the past is my way of living. I think it's good, so please try with me ^^

What...if...

I was so blue... it's about 1:17 am here and outside, the temperature is about -20 o C... I don't know why I have this feeling of emptiness. After seeing [you] last night, I couldn't do anything else... It was Saturday night but I couldn't even watch a movie or read a book. There was a big emptiness both in my heart and in my head...

I used to think that I have the answer to everything... but this world doesn't always go my own way... I have to accept [something] even I don't like... what if the one who told about "love" weren't you? what if it was me? what if I even love you more than you love me? what should I do now? what do you think? what will move on? I am so scared...

As I usually tell you that I got scared when things come so fast... because fast come fast go... I really don't want any bad thing happen to our relationship... it's hard, very hard to me to open my heart with someone... and even harder to have a friend like you... at that far away...

I really want to continue writting my feelings here... but it seems like I can't. I am so blue.

Mis-understood!

...

T.T

:(

I hate myself.. Im so childish.. and I also hate the distance, I hate the difference in languages..

I need to grow up, need to think and re-think...

I need to get to know the multiple meaning of words...

I am too bad!

Please forgive me..

A rainy day in snowy country

Me watching "Harmony" (Korean movie)

14.01.2011

Porvoo, Finland

Once again, I woke up so soon this morning for no reason. I tried to lay back on my bed and closed my eyes but it didn't help me to sleep a bit more...

I decided to stand up, made the bed, came to the computer and started watching a random Korean movie. The title was "Harmony".. and as usual, I cried a lot because of the movie.. I dont know since when I became this sensitive girl. Maybe because now I'm living so far away and I saw the love of Mother to daughter, of husband to wife, of kids to Mother, of lovers... throughout "Harmony". And also... as usual, Korean movie has a very un-happy ending.. >.<

Come to Pico, I would say that [you] made me worried really! You said last night you couldn't sleep and you did not be online in this morning. I remembered [you] once told me that you had to go to the hospital (although [you] were quite ok).. and when I could not see you, the hospital's image appeared in my mind :S.. well, please take care of yourself...because I cant take care of [you]... please do it for me..

Well then, it's better when I know [you]'re there, still okay ^^... next time, if there is something wrong to [you], please let me know soon, okay?

Much more later, I received another gift. A lovely video with lovely music from my [special friend]. ^^ I like it so much and I do think Ray likes it too. Hope someday we will see another video made by Ray on our walls ^^

In the video, I realized that the Japanese singer is really what [you] usually describe. She has the glasses and kitty ears ^^ soo kawaii!! I am gonna search for the meaning of the song, I hope I can understand it in order to like it haha ^^.. and about at the moment you adopted Sebby-chan, you came home and pet Nyan first! You showed me that you kept the promise to love Nyan same as before ^^.. I believe that Nyan will happy and accept Sebby-chan as his best friend for life...er... and one more thing.. in the video you call all of us Phantomhive's family :"> and yes! I do think we are more like a family ^^ I feel warm here at my heart. Thank you my [precious friend] ♥ ♥ ♥

Although we - [you] and Ray, could not log into Pico today, I still met [you] on my facebook ^^. I always feel happy to see [you] everyday.. but maybe because I think of myself as a boring person.. I worried if [you] may get bored when seeing me this much..

.. it's hard for me to get bored of [you] as I told [you] that [you] are so addictive, but when [you] need your own time to do something, don't hesitate to let me know, okay? ^^

See all of my friends tomorrow.. my eyes need some rest now ^^

Journey to the West

13.01.2011

Porvoo, Finland

Awww... words come out so fast that I don't know where I should start now >.<

Hahaha, anyway, I will make this a good entry because I know that [someone] will come to read tomorrow ^^ and I will wait to see the pink heart glowing on my map..

Let's start from the very early morning.. when I woke up because of some bad dreams which is hard to remember.. it was about 6:30a.m. Looked outside, it was still dark.. I asked to myself what should I do now.. then.. I opened my computer and saw that ohh my Pico is sleeping at Ray's house.. hmm, I think last night I forgot to log out because it was a very long time maintenance and I started to worry about some pets of Vincent and Ray.. I did not know when they finish the maintenance and I was the only one who was still in Pico while Ray tried so hard to log in but unsuccessfully. Then, I had to take the responsibility with all friends' pets ^^

Nyan and me

Back to my early morning, well, nothing new on Pico at that time.. then, an idea pop-up in my head. I remembered about [something] that [someone] asked me before and that question really left a mark in me. A [special friend] asked me about my sign instead of my Birthday!! and that [special friend] also told me that I would need more than 1 arrow because his sign is [double] one ^^ haha

Those words came back to me this morning and I started to do a small research about Zodiac signs astrology. Waalaa, I read through many texts and was really surprised because it said so true about me.. how come! @_@

Coming back to Pico after the second maintenance, I suddently met my [special friend].. I did not know my [special friend] was there at that time, I just came to check if Nyan and Sebby are hungry or not.. But yes, I felt soooo happy when I saw [special friend] there ^^

I told my [special friend] about what I've read and we discussed about it a lot. I really like the discussion and yes, [special friend] again left some marks in me.. I know someday in the near future, when I have free time, I will pull them out to think of ^^... um.. and I really want to make [someone] shy :">

In the evening, as usual, I came to Pico and met my little brother-Ti.. and there is also a rarity because I was playing Pico together with talking mommy via internet. This rarity brought to me so many interesting things I will never forget ^^..er, and [you] will too haha

Well, we-including me [you] Ray Ti and my Mommy were travelling around in Pico and my Mommy likes Pico so much ^^, I heard her laughing so hard and this thing is also considered as rarity too ^^. She kept praising [your] Pico and [your] home haha, I am gonna make you shy now!!! She asked me if in real life you are as handsome as [your] Pico la la la ^^

[You] and my little brother

The theme today on Pico was "Journey to the West" and we wore so many funny costumes. Raywas first transform into Zhu Bajie, Ti transformed into Sun Wukong and [you] transformed into the Priest ^^. That movie used to be one of my most favourite when I was about 5-6 years old. Each and every Vietnamese children were in love with those 4 characters and we watched the movie again and again without boredom ^^

Together, I took lots of pictures at the Chaulin Temple in China and I am gonna let [you] see them now ^^

Wee do Renkan-ken ^^

Kawaii

Renkan-ken again ^^

Yay we will live forever because we ate him ^^

A small party at my secret garden put an end for today. I was super happy than ever to have great time with all of my friends, especially [you]. Thank you for being with me ^^

P/s I really like what we did right before Ray came back :">

Inside I am dancing..

12.01.2011

Porvoo, Finland

I have had a hard working day and just got back home at 5:00 pm.. it was a hard day because of the weather. It was snowy, slippery.. that made me fall several times and it's still hurt now >.<. I really hate the weather in this North-European country.. All of the streets out there are now exactly like in the ice rink but there is one thing different - [I couldn't wear skating shoes to walk].

I was born in a tropical country where it's hot, lots of rain.. and I love some rainy days. Even now when I'm living in this snowy country, I still listening to the sound of rain every time I go to sleep. The sound of rain is like a song in my heart and it makes me sleep so well..

Talking about sleep, I am the one who is hard to feel as sleep and when I sleep, I usually (or can even say "always") have dreams. Most of my dreams was so bad.. last night in my dream, my mom had to go to the hospital.. It was a bad dream and it really affected my mood today.. anyway, I should not think about it anymore.

Then I went back home, started my computer and there is [something] which has really surprised me. There is a song played by a guitarist on my facebook.. and it's [for me]. What can I say now??? when there is something like magic that erased all my pain.. I really appreciate what [you] did for me.. although we could not see tonight, but from my heart I want to say selamat malam.. sweet dreams to [you]...

terima kasih..